People throw love around like it's no big deal nowadays - "omg, I love your *insert whatever object seems to be worthy of passionate emotion at the present*" And people just take it like it's no big deal.

No big deal?

Seriously?

I think it's a big deal. I think it's big enough to make you think twice about that raw sense of emotion. To know that you've made such an impact on that person's life even though you've only met him or her for a few months. I think it's something special.

I think he said it tonight. Over Skype. Few days ago. Sometime.

How do I feel?

I don't know. I wish I was like any other person without the restrictions I have on myself. He deserves more than this. This sneaking around. This confinement. Deep down I think maybe I want to give him some outs, therefore navigating through the relationship without severe emotional attachment.

I don't know anything. All I know is that he's worth it, all the stress, the paranoia, but is it love?

I want to believe so.