Sunday, November 30, 2008
So instead of finishing my Hopkins essay, here I am blogging about well..nothing important. I figure I'd post some pictures up from homecoming (a month and half back) because I realize I never did deliver the promised pictures from my earlier posts.
Enjoy! :)
I think I might look like Dawn Yang here...I could be delusional
Saturday, November 29, 2008
My break is coming to an end.
(Wtf? Didn't it just start?)
But yes, it's coming to an end.
And what did I accomplish this week?
NOTHING.
Absolutely NOTHING.
Maybe not exactly nothing.
I did embark on a 10 hour shopping spree
(never attempting that again)
Watched 4 movies
(including the abomination that is Twilight)
Finished 2 college applications
(one of which I'm currently doing)
Got into a car accident
(That old man I could kill)
Overall, not exactly a terribly boring Thanksgiving.
When's Christmas break again?
(Oops, I meant Winter break :p)
{ 11:22 PM }
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Voila! A New layout. I figure it would be appropriate to reinvent the blog after sporadically updating with rather short posts. This is a mark into the previous normalcy of longer more thought out posts since I'm about to begin worrying less due to my acceptance at UT. It's really a relief, eventhough everybody claimed "you already knew you would be accepted."
It wasn't that I had doubted my acceptance, it was just the added recognition of knowing that I was bound for some place, that I had a back up just in case every other school on my list decides to reject me (a high possibility given my ethnicity and number of applicants this year). I might consider a mental check out right about now. The drive to do any form of work is certainly diminishing with every letter typed in this blog post.
In fact, I'm pretty sure at this point my Hopkins essays are not going to write themselves on their own. I'll come back with a better post once I've caught up on the sleep I've been deprived on for so long :)
Happy Turkey Day!
{ 4:01 PM }
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
I got accepted to UT Austin :)HOOK 'EM!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I said it. Not the "L" word. But something that might mark the start of it. I was scared. I still am. I have my doubts.
"I think you're in love with the concept of a girlfriend than you are truly in love with me"
Was it too quick to spring on him? I don't know. I'm so lost and dazed and confused and uncertain and nervous. And worst of all I only get to see him once more before he leaves for his trip till Sunday. Thinking about it makes me a tad sad. Something I'm not used to.
In case of confusion, that wsan't the line I insinuated with the first sentence. But I said it anyhow as we were sitting in the cold, pitch black and tree branches rustling. I think I overthink these things, but it's only because I want to fall in it with as much joy as I can scrounge up in my descent.
I don't know how to end this post. Prolly an apt metaphor for my thoughts. I'm just going to ...
{ 11:11 PM }
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
People throw love around like it's no big deal nowadays - "omg, I love your *insert whatever object seems to be worthy of passionate emotion at the present*" And people just take it like it's no big deal.
No big deal?
Seriously?
I think it's a big deal. I think it's big enough to make you think twice about that raw sense of emotion. To know that you've made such an impact on that person's life even though you've only met him or her for a few months. I think it's something special.
I think he said it tonight. Over Skype. Few days ago. Sometime.
How do I feel?
I don't know. I wish I was like any other person without the restrictions I have on myself. He deserves more than this. This sneaking around. This confinement. Deep down I think maybe I want to give him some outs, therefore navigating through the relationship without severe emotional attachment.
I don't know anything. All I know is that he's worth it, all the stress, the paranoia, but is it love?
I want to believe so.
{ 12:07 AM }
Monday, November 3, 2008
*sigh*
Ok so I know I haven't been blogging in God knows how long because of my decision to become the busiest nerd alive (wtf?) BUT tonight I've got......4 minutes and 30 seconds to spare (no joke) therefore I figured I'd blog for the sake of blogging and to get a gagillion things off my chest :)
The month (???any period of time since you last heard from me???) in review:
- Got a new phone :) It's red, it's "mirror-y" and it's a slider - LG Shine ftw!
- Got a boyfriend -----still unbelievable yet I absolutely adore him; dad not knowing and mom going "wtf you can date" does not factor into the equation.
- Applied to a college ----> U. of Chicago - take me! take me! Please??
- Went to homecoming (duh) with my then date now boyfriend :)
- Been driving all over the place in my mom's soccer mom style mini SUV wannabe Sportage - helps with the sneaking out to see him bit. God I'm cheap >_<
- Conquered my fear of haunted houses - House of Torment = lame.
- Finally watched La Dolce Vita .... only to have fallen asleep 3/4 of the way through =-="
- Chelsea lost....to Liverpool.
SON OF A BITCH
DAMN LIVERPOOL CIBAI!
Peace and love ya'll :)
{ 6:11 PM }
