Dear country of mine,

I am Malaysian, and damn straight am I proud of it. However, the circumstances that were bestowed upon this country with the most amazing food has led me to reconsider the seriousness of my national pride.

What is in a name? or more importantly in this case, what is in a race? Back home, we've got limited opportunities and yet somehow those opportunities for a better future (be it careers, education, financial prospects, anything) are even more limited to the 2nd race citizens - basically anybody who's non-bumi.

I'll admit it. I'm a complete foreigner in my own country. I'm Chinese (2nd race) and Pakistani (total foreigner) which automatically puts me at the bottom of the barrel. It's essentially slim pickings for me. If I were at a job interview and it came down to two people - me and a Bumi, the Bumi will get the job HANDS DOWN. Does anybody want to challenge that logic?

It's not a case of sour grapes. No, don't get me wrong. I've been harboring this particular opinion within me all this while and have just been triggered by an email sent by mom courtesy of a Malaysian who's losing her own sense of national pride due to the ongoing racial discrimination back home. It just saddens me whenever I hear another case of a non-Malay losing out to a less deserving (though not in all cases, sometimes there ARE brighter and better Bumis) Bumi. This has seriously got me thinking, is return possible? Here the minorities get taken care of just nicely (in most occasions), or at least better than they are back home. I'm not so sure if I can just tear myself away from the opportunities laid out in front of me for a life where I face a high chance of being under appreciated.

Yours truly,
A very disappointed Malaysian.
{ 8:46 PM }

and with that i give you the (potentially) most enthralling movie of the year thus far.(mind you the fact that it's rated R will not, and i repeat NOT stand in my way of viewing this Frank Miller adaptation; however there is a high chance that I will have to wait for eternity till the DVD gets out. Again, damnit.)
{ 10:39 AM }

Things I'm thankful for this month:

1. Nanette Lepore Keds finally coming out *squeals in delight*
2. The Black Donnelly's (Jonathan Tucker and Billy Lush = hot, hot, hot!)
3. Spring Break - definitely in need of a break (presentations and test does stressful wonders to the skin.)
4. District team - after all that hard work, I finally made the poetry district team =)
5. Rebellion(lies) by Arcade Fire - the song never fails to put me in a better mood.

Well, so they may not be extremely 'amazing' or 'deep' things to be thankful for, but at least I appreciate the small things alright?

One thing I'm not thankful for however, is my lack of sleep. I normally get decent amounts of sleep but for some reason, this week has just been rough. I sleep the regular amounts but I just don't seem to get enough. In all stupidity I adapted this mentality that sleep is for the weak and bla bla bla but all I've come to is that the lack of sleep is causing me to fall off my bed every morning as i feel restless. My butt now has become a vision of blue and black. Ouch.

Well, only 84 days till my oasis. I'm going to have to tough it out i guess. After all, sleeping is giving in...
{ 9:56 PM }

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